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I’m Alive, Honestly!

Fri ,07/05/2010

Wow, I can’t believe it’s been over a whole MONTH since last I posted!  I keep meaning to tackle part 2 of my previous post, but everytime I sit down to do so I’m just not quite sure where to start.  This is the problem with an eclectic and evolving path, it keeps changing.  I’m currently exploring Buddhism more in depth, and am experiencing even more positive growth in my spiritual life.  I’ll get my thoughts in order eventually and tackle that subject, but right now I just want to actually POST something.  Write a little.

Life has been, well… life.  There’s been some positives on the road lately, and some negatives.  Good times and bad.  My financial situation has brightened a bit lately, I’ve dealt with a car dying on the side of the highway at 2am, and the subsequent transmission repairs, and the kids continue to grow like weeds.  Speaking of growing things, for those that don’t follow along with me on Facebook, I’m in the middle of tackling my vegetable garden for the first time ever!  I’ve gotten a 8′ x 12′ plot of land turned over, and would be building the beds and planting today if it weren’t so cold and rainy.  I’m planning on growing tomatoes, green beans, green peppers, romaine lettuce, spinach, broccoli, zucchini, summer squash, carrots and strawberries.  If there’s room left over (and there should be) I also plan on planting some herbs, most notably white sage.  I’m kind of at a loss what as to what herbs I should plant, as I don’t frequently USE herbs.  Suggestions anyone?

The job search continues, with little success.

I’ve been terrible not only about writing in my blog, but also with READING blogs.  My apologies to everyone, I’m not intending to slight anybody.  I’m spending more and more time focusing on my immediate surroundings, and just can’t seem to summon up enough time or energy to get around to all the reading I was doing.

I’ve been continuing my yoga practice, and let me tell you… the benefits to mind and soul aside, yoga is amazing for losing weight and sculpting and toning muscles.  I’ve never felt so sexy!  LOL

Last night I attended an open house for where my son will be going to school next year.  He’ll be entering Kindergarten, and the school where he’ll be going has four Kindergarten classes, all in their own building.  I got to meet all four of his potential teachers (teacher/student assignments have not been done yet), and while I liked them all, I’m really hoping he gets the first teacher we met with.  When he would ask questions of the teacher, she would in turn encourage him to figure out the answers, where the other teachers would just tell him.  I really love how she handled and encouraged his curiousity, so I got my fingers crossed on that one.

My daughter continues to grow up, and she’s absolutely adorable.  She has the squeakiest little voice, and is always in an amazing mood.  Sure, as she’s growing, she’s hit the stage where she’s trying crying to get her way on things, but I learned that lesson the hard way with my son.  Throw your tantrum, come talk to me when you’re done, I’m not playing that game, lol.

Today, I think since the weather won’t be cooperating, it’ll be a nice, calm, long day of cleaning as I go, and enjoying life.  There’s definitely a benefit of being able to look and find a positive in any negative, and in appreciating the little things.  That benefit has me smiling as I sip my coffee on this cold and rainy day, and I do so love to smile.

Shaping Fear and Bhuta Shuddi

Sun ,14/03/2010

I spent a lot of time today digging deeper into myself, coming to grips with some of my fears and looking at them head on.  This was prompted by a couple of videos that I had remembered seeing months back, that I took the time to find again today.  They were from a lecture given by ZaChoeje Rinpoche, a Tibetan Buddhist.  A lot of good thoughts in these, I would HIGHLY recommend watching them.  You can find them below if you are interested.

After this, I was faced with more fears, more worries, so I decided to take the bull by the horns (or the horns by the bull, I DO tend be something of a masochist at times), and deal with it.  I lit some incense, smudged the room and myself, did some yoga in the form of sun salutations, and then took Savasana (corpse pose) afterwards.  From there, I proceeded to do a round of Bhuta Shuddi to really open myself up, and then finished with a meditation on my fears.  All I can say is WOW.  By the time I was done, I had the biggest headrush, and felt as if I could fly.  For those who are unfamiliar with what Bhuta Shuddi is, I’ll try to explain.

Bhuta Shuddi is an ancient chakra meditation of yoga and tantra practice through which the five elements (bhutas) are balanced or purified (shuddhi). Bhuta refers to the past, and shuddhi refers to purifying that past, or the samskaras that operate in conjunction with the five elements.

There may be many methods of purifying the five elements, ranging from meditative practices to various forms of ritualistic practices.  Bhuta Shuddhi works directly with attention on the chakras, balancing the subtle forces of the five elements through the use of the bija (seed) mantras of the chakras.  A bija mantra is a sacred vowel to resonate with a chakra.  Meditation on these points and chanting is practised in order to free up the energy flow within, which also brings results externally. The process of chanting itself shakes up the held patterns of energy and reshapes them to their higher possibility.

I read quite a few disclaimers on this, warning that this was a powerful method of chakra alignment, and the results could be stronger than one bargains for if it’s their first time.  I indeed found this to be the case.  I went from the root chakra, up through the crown, and back down again.  U-N-R-E-A-L.  The act of going back down is done to help re-ground, but even so, I still needed a good long while to ground after it was all said and done.  And the best part, I felt results.  I felt GOOD.

So after realigning and balancing my energies, I took the time to meditate on some inner parts of me, and gradually, throughout the day, managed to face a fear, and to deal with it.  While it still is leaving me sad, I feel like through this maybe I can shape this fear into a positive direction.  Fingers crossed everyone!  ;)

Anywho, I promised videos, and I feel like maybe I’m getting rambly again.  So without further ado, here are parts 1 and 2 of ZaChoeje Rinpoche’s “Shaping Fear – Being in the Present Moment”


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