The realization of just how badly I’ve messed up right off the bat today, had me feeling pretty low, pretty ashamed, and yes, sad. I needed some guidance, and I was getting ready to walk out the door, my eyes alighted on the tarot and runes sitting there from two weeks ago. I hadn’t picked them up since, last time being a powerful gift that kept me going for quite a while. So this morning, I took a couple more moments to ask what I should be keeping in mind right now, and got a bit of a surprise.

Two cards leaped off the top of the deck after shuffling, face up and side by side. I drew two runes as well. I ended up with the “2 of Chalices” linked with the rune “Fehu”, and “The Lovers” linked with the rune “Jera”. I’ll leave my personal interpretations of this set to myself, it’s a bit private, but I did notice a few things with this draw that caught my attention. While reading the rune interpretations for “Fehu”, a part I usually ignore – the deity associated with the rune – leaped off the page at me. Fehu, associated with Freyja. A mental shrug, and then on to the next. Jera, the year, the harvest. A rune tied to harvest coming up on Mabon? Interesting! On a whim I looked at the deity associated with this rune too. Freyja. Two runes tied to Freyja, one dealing with harvest, on a day associated with harvest.

I’m not familiar with Freyja. I’m not familiar, if it comes right down to it, with MOST of the god/dess forms deity chooses to reveal itself as. I did a little research however (as much as was possible to get a general idea, being limited by my cellphone internet), and came up with this. Freyja is a goddess of love, beauty, abundance and fertility. She also is a goddess of battle and death. She has connections to magic and divination. And on a further whim, searches on deities related to Mabon revealed, of course, Freyja. This all seems to fit in with both the cards and runes drawn, and with today in particular.

Therefore, I’m taking today to do a little more research, and honor Freyja for bestowing me with this gift, and to take some time to reflect on the message I’ve been given. Hopefully today I can bake some bread, and maybe it’s not too late to salvage today, to mark it and make it something special, and share it with the one I love, in whatever way I can. Happy Mabon to you all.